I turn 40 in one month and have been working out daily since Jan 1, 2013 … feeling like I am in the best physical shape I’ve been in since high school. But something happened 48 hours ago that has me scared as hell. Despite my attempts to put it out of my mind, I haven’t been able to stop the constant “what if” thoughts.
Having lost many family members early in their life I used to joke as a young adult that I would probably never make it to age 50 … then somewhere in my mid 30’s I stopped saying & believing that. Now that I am a husband and father of a beautiful little 3 year old boy I want to live a long healthy life, but now having tremendous fear that I may not 🙁
The overwhelming fear in my head is “if something does happen to me, I have not done enough to provide for my wife, my boy, my dog or my Mom & sister. I am sure many of you reading this will be able to relate, but at the same time I am positive many of you will have no way to relate to this feeling. For those of you that can not relate, let me tell you it is ABSOLUTELY THE WORST FEELING EVER!
I am truly scared!
Suddenly I feel a sense of urgency, as if the timer is counting down and all I can hear is tick tick tick …. tick tick tick … I am doing my best to be present, but feeling conflicted … should I be present and spend time with them OR should I be present and get my ass to work with laser focus and attract the wealth I have always dreamt of so that if the worst were to happen in the near future they would be in a good financial situation.
There is no guarantee of tomorrow, hell there isn’t even a guarantee of later today, so you must give your best every single minute you are given. You owe it to yourself, your family, your friends and the world to pursue your dreams with urgency and laser focus.
You have to avoid the the never ending current of distractions and constant chatter/noise going on around you, so …
Starting right now, with this post: I am living the life I deserve, the life I dream of, the life God wants me to have, and the life I promised my wife when we met … the life I want for my boy!
I welcome fear as I will face it eye to eye and smash through it with a positive attitude and confidence while staying on the most direct path to my pursuing my dream of sharing my God given talents with the world.
If you can relate to what I am going through right now, PLEASE leave a comment below and share your story with me and anyone who may benefit from your experience.
If you can’t relate to what I am going through, but feel inspired to start living your life to its fullest by my story or any of the stories shared in the comments PLEASE leave a comment below and let me know.